Friday, 25 December 2009
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
haiz...sadly, i have to work today.
but ohwells..its okay.
but i didn't have a very nice day today.
was ruined by someone.
by a LIE.
people who know me should know fully well that...
i hate people who LIE.
but...this person,
can be considered a close friend,
failed to remember that..
and...lied.
okay...so i was angry.
and i ignored this friend from that moment onwards.
you all may say i petty.
but the answer i need from that friend was important..
and still my friend lied.
so...what else can i do?
haiz...
don't wanna talk aboout it.
it seems that there's no fate between us.
we not compatible.
like two parallel lines which will never meet.....
can't break through
We wouldn't last for the week
I guess they think that I'm a freak
They hated my blue streak
I cant control this
[Chorus:]
Why does it feel like it's raining in my head?
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
I feel that it's time
For me to draw the line
(I know that I'll be fine)
Without your bitchin'
Cos' everyday I become
A little less known
Like I don't even know you
[Chorus:]
Why does it feel like it's raining in my head?
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
Cos' I don't need you
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
haiz...sadly, i have to work today.
but ohwells..its okay.
but i didn't have a very nice day today.
was ruined by someone.
by a LIE.
people who know me should know fully well that...
i hate people who LIE.
but...this person,
can be considered a close friend,
failed to remember that..
and...lied.
okay...so i was angry.
and i ignored this friend from that moment onwards.
you all may say i petty.
but the answer i need from that friend was important..
and still my friend lied.
so...what else can i do?
haiz...
don't wanna talk aboout it.
it seems that there's no fate between us.
we not compatible.
like two parallel lines which will never meet.....
can't break through
We wouldn't last for the week
I guess they think that I'm a freak
They hated my blue streak
I cant control this
[Chorus:]
Why does it feel like it's raining in my head?
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
I feel that it's time
For me to draw the line
(I know that I'll be fine)
Without your bitchin'
Cos' everyday I become
A little less known
Like I don't even know you
[Chorus:]
Why does it feel like it's raining in my head?
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't say it started cause
Cos' I don't need you
I've given up and never reminisce
I found a way of getting over this
I let go in everyway
Cos' I don't need you
Cos' I don't need you
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
Don't think I wanna know
I've gotta go before I go crazy
I let go in everyway
Cos' anyway, I know that you hate me
what we could have been...17:15.
Tuesday, 22 December 2009
haiz...its over.
i think i am so damn pathetic.
when i'm ever sad,
i realised i have no one to talk to.
DAMNIT.
haiz....
i guess that's how "MUCH" close friends i have.
and those close friends are overseas,
how to talk.
and all aren't coming back until jan.
omg..this sucks mann..
i should learn to be strong.
but my most weak pooint is i am too damn soft hearted.
even when i act cold outside,
my heart always ache inside.
but do anyone know?
do anyone understands?
no...
so what if i told you all?
what will you all think?
oh..its the same old thing again.
i'm just the paranoid, petty girl.
also a damn sensitive one.
FREAK!
ugh..i'm on the verge of....what?
crying, screaming and exploding i guess?
think i have been suppressing for too long.
but...ohwells.
this totally sucks man.
shhit..
argh...
never mind.
anyway, january is coming.
which means we are gonna get our results soon.
OMG..
thinkng of it already gave me the teethers..
i just hope i did well...
anyway, might sever ties with someone.
don't wanna elaborate anymore.
bye..
christmas is coming! :)
i want presents..
but need work on that day...
never mind.
jiayou... :D
ta-daa...
i think i am so damn pathetic.
when i'm ever sad,
i realised i have no one to talk to.
DAMNIT.
haiz....
i guess that's how "MUCH" close friends i have.
and those close friends are overseas,
how to talk.
and all aren't coming back until jan.
omg..this sucks mann..
i should learn to be strong.
but my most weak pooint is i am too damn soft hearted.
even when i act cold outside,
my heart always ache inside.
but do anyone know?
do anyone understands?
no...
so what if i told you all?
what will you all think?
oh..its the same old thing again.
i'm just the paranoid, petty girl.
also a damn sensitive one.
FREAK!
ugh..i'm on the verge of....what?
crying, screaming and exploding i guess?
think i have been suppressing for too long.
but...ohwells.
this totally sucks man.
shhit..
argh...
never mind.
anyway, january is coming.
which means we are gonna get our results soon.
OMG..
thinkng of it already gave me the teethers..
i just hope i did well...
anyway, might sever ties with someone.
don't wanna elaborate anymore.
bye..
christmas is coming! :)
i want presents..
but need work on that day...
never mind.
jiayou... :D
ta-daa...
what we could have been...23:19.
Sunday, 13 December 2009
today's work was okay..
only me and my friend.
so we had to settle everything.
but we got released early..
cause nothing much to do mahs.
was planning to go watch new moon.
because no other days free mah..
but my friend back out at the last minute.
then...whatthehell.
too bad lor..
and i was damn angry..
ohwells..i think its totally over.
ii mean.....
i want a someone who...never mind.
once i say, there's no stopping.
some might think its too high expectations.
but...its actually very simple.
is it so hard?
why in movies or shows or books..
its just the one and only??
why must it be so damn complicated in reality?
sigh....
argh...
i'm so damn troubled right now.
and they, or rather some of them...
won't ever understand.
freak mann...
haiz....
i haven't cried so much for a very long time.
why must it happen all over again?
i'm those people who cry and don't wanna let people see or know.
i try to act srtong.
try to act as if they're not hurting me.
for inside me,
i'm struggling,
fighting back my emotions....
and it hurts..
if you don't know.
it hurts terribly.
i thought i was gonna die of a heart attack.
speaking of that..
i think my heart really have some problems sia..
quite pain...
hmm...
ohwells.
i don't know.
知道
她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她一句一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
他比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一句一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我 却不在你心中 逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我 总换不了你的 心动ho~哦
我知道了她哪里比我好很多
在你心中我永远不可能让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我 在你心中没有 她多
only me and my friend.
so we had to settle everything.
but we got released early..
cause nothing much to do mahs.
was planning to go watch new moon.
because no other days free mah..
but my friend back out at the last minute.
then...whatthehell.
too bad lor..
and i was damn angry..
ohwells..i think its totally over.
ii mean.....
i want a someone who...never mind.
once i say, there's no stopping.
some might think its too high expectations.
but...its actually very simple.
is it so hard?
why in movies or shows or books..
its just the one and only??
why must it be so damn complicated in reality?
sigh....
argh...
i'm so damn troubled right now.
and they, or rather some of them...
won't ever understand.
freak mann...
haiz....
i haven't cried so much for a very long time.
why must it happen all over again?
i'm those people who cry and don't wanna let people see or know.
i try to act srtong.
try to act as if they're not hurting me.
for inside me,
i'm struggling,
fighting back my emotions....
and it hurts..
if you don't know.
it hurts terribly.
i thought i was gonna die of a heart attack.
speaking of that..
i think my heart really have some problems sia..
quite pain...
hmm...
ohwells.
i don't know.
知道
她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她一句一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
他比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一句一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我 却不在你心中 逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我 总换不了你的 心动ho~哦
我知道了她哪里比我好很多
在你心中我永远不可能让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我 在你心中没有 她多
what we could have been...18:08.
Monday, 7 December 2009
sigh....i am damn.....
i don't know which words to use to explain my feelngs now.
haiz...its just....so....
i don't know.
forget it.
no matter how hard i try not to let my tears fall,
they'll roll down my face nevertheless. --'
haiz.
i have my pride.
i don't like to show other people that i'm weak..
that's why maybe i outer strong, inner weak.
or both weak??? =(
sian.
haiz....
also nobody to confide in.
don't think anybody will understand either.
so...forget it then.
i think i'm going be emo soon.
dammit.
but...won't show it to my friends.
lest they worry..
will put on my cheerful side when i meet my long time no meet friends.
lol...
today's work was super much..
work until my whole body aching.
hahaha.
lols.
hmm...shall stop here then.
bye..
i don't know which words to use to explain my feelngs now.
haiz...its just....so....
i don't know.
forget it.
no matter how hard i try not to let my tears fall,
they'll roll down my face nevertheless. --'
haiz.
i have my pride.
i don't like to show other people that i'm weak..
that's why maybe i outer strong, inner weak.
or both weak??? =(
sian.
haiz....
also nobody to confide in.
don't think anybody will understand either.
so...forget it then.
i think i'm going be emo soon.
dammit.
but...won't show it to my friends.
lest they worry..
will put on my cheerful side when i meet my long time no meet friends.
lol...
today's work was super much..
work until my whole body aching.
hahaha.
lols.
hmm...shall stop here then.
bye..
what we could have been...23:28.
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
sigh...today was a busy and tiring day.
but...it was also a bad day for me.
was damn pissed and f*** up.
by YOU.
damnit...
i am just to exsaperated to explain to you.
we always ended up quarrelling and fighting.
and i hate it.
so....its over lah, its better for both of us.
since there are two other girls together with you.
you also contradict yourself..
take today for an example:
i shouldn't mind and care who you talk to.
then FINE...
you don't have the right to control me either.
but you said it was your freedom,
so its also my freedom..
so what? contradicting yourself...
haiz.
please luh...
i'm sick of all this lerh..
if i'm a sensitive and easily jealous girl,
you should know it better and by now.
so...i told you.
you didn't listen..
ah...never mind.
don't wanna talk about all this here and again.
sigh.
today's work was busy and tiring too.
i think i'm slowly getting used to it.
hahaha.
ohwells.
suddenly i feel so empty within me.
everybody gone.
alleyne's back in indo,
anawat's gone.
waa...sad, that time i go send them at the airport,
i cried...
ohmmygod.
haha..too emotional.
lols.
never mind.
hmm....so yeah.
i think that's all for today.
bye..
but...it was also a bad day for me.
was damn pissed and f*** up.
by YOU.
damnit...
i am just to exsaperated to explain to you.
we always ended up quarrelling and fighting.
and i hate it.
so....its over lah, its better for both of us.
since there are two other girls together with you.
you also contradict yourself..
take today for an example:
i shouldn't mind and care who you talk to.
then FINE...
you don't have the right to control me either.
but you said it was your freedom,
so its also my freedom..
so what? contradicting yourself...
haiz.
please luh...
i'm sick of all this lerh..
if i'm a sensitive and easily jealous girl,
you should know it better and by now.
so...i told you.
you didn't listen..
ah...never mind.
don't wanna talk about all this here and again.
sigh.
today's work was busy and tiring too.
i think i'm slowly getting used to it.
hahaha.
ohwells.
suddenly i feel so empty within me.
everybody gone.
alleyne's back in indo,
anawat's gone.
waa...sad, that time i go send them at the airport,
i cried...
ohmmygod.
haha..too emotional.
lols.
never mind.
hmm....so yeah.
i think that's all for today.
bye..
what we could have been...23:43.
Thursday, 26 November 2009
hmm... 3rd day at work.
getting along fine i guess. :)
haha..at first the first day was tiring.
but now, i'm actually enjoying the job.
although i'll feel tired, but...ohwells.
gaining experience bahx.
but lunch is just half an hour.
so everytime i eat, i'll be damn uncomfortable.
like...the food is stuck in my chest.
so...haiz.
never mind. endure!
so...anybody who would like to order satay or bbq food,
can order from the company i'm working.
if lucky, i might be the one taking your order. ^^
muahahahaha. lol.
anyway, PSLE results came out today.
not bad not bad.
but then.....
i suddenly felt scared.
for the release of o levels results.
sigh.
i just hope i pass everything and my english get at least a B can already.
pray hard.
so anyway, went to ngee ann poly today to do administratives stuffs.
OHMYGOD.
the...how to say, the people at the counters in the office looked fierce.
and alleyne and me were damn blur, scared and shocked.
like HUH????
and the person looked fierce?
i don't know.
omg..i'm so gonna die in poly mann.
that's what my mum said.
cause i don't dare do anything.
shucks...
then suddenly reflected if i had make the right choice.
but....look on the bright side bahx.
atleast i got alleyne with me.
AND she would surely beat me in mass comm.
she's born to be one.
LOL
my mum said that too.
say i so timid, will lose out to everybody in mass comm. =((((
HAIZ...
don't know luh.
got try to be bolder, but...poly is NEW to me.
must let me adapt first.....
hmm...alleyne's flying this sunday and i can't send her due to me working.
shucks.
haiz.
never mind.
hope will be able to sms.
and will wait for her to return. :)
hahaha..
alrights then.
happy hari raya haji to all tomorrow.
i still have to work tomorrow.
so...sayonara.
takecares.
will post next time.
~^^~ <3
getting along fine i guess. :)
haha..at first the first day was tiring.
but now, i'm actually enjoying the job.
although i'll feel tired, but...ohwells.
gaining experience bahx.
but lunch is just half an hour.
so everytime i eat, i'll be damn uncomfortable.
like...the food is stuck in my chest.
so...haiz.
never mind. endure!
so...anybody who would like to order satay or bbq food,
can order from the company i'm working.
if lucky, i might be the one taking your order. ^^
muahahahaha. lol.
anyway, PSLE results came out today.
not bad not bad.
but then.....
i suddenly felt scared.
for the release of o levels results.
sigh.
i just hope i pass everything and my english get at least a B can already.
pray hard.
so anyway, went to ngee ann poly today to do administratives stuffs.
OHMYGOD.
the...how to say, the people at the counters in the office looked fierce.
and alleyne and me were damn blur, scared and shocked.
like HUH????
and the person looked fierce?
i don't know.
omg..i'm so gonna die in poly mann.
that's what my mum said.
cause i don't dare do anything.
shucks...
then suddenly reflected if i had make the right choice.
but....look on the bright side bahx.
atleast i got alleyne with me.
AND she would surely beat me in mass comm.
she's born to be one.
LOL
my mum said that too.
say i so timid, will lose out to everybody in mass comm. =((((
HAIZ...
don't know luh.
got try to be bolder, but...poly is NEW to me.
must let me adapt first.....
hmm...alleyne's flying this sunday and i can't send her due to me working.
shucks.
haiz.
never mind.
hope will be able to sms.
and will wait for her to return. :)
hahaha..
alrights then.
happy hari raya haji to all tomorrow.
i still have to work tomorrow.
so...sayonara.
takecares.
will post next time.
~^^~ <3
what we could have been...21:59.
Tuesday, 24 November 2009
ahhh...
first day of work today.
it was....ohhkay?
its actually quite manageable.
but...its damn busy one lor.
so...when i was on the bus home.
felt so damn tired.
somemore..i didn't really slept yesterday night.
but...whatever..
and i think i'm truly a workaholic sia.
after work already i still keep thinking about work.
lols.
so basically is to answer calls to answer their qns
and to reconfirm then type out the invoice.
we're still learning.
argh..so tomorrow the boss asked me to answer the calls
while my friend will type the invoice.
actually tying the thing is way way easier.
answering the calls are not THAT easy
but he said i answered better.
well...like alleyne said: i'm gonna be a mass comm person.
so...obviously i'll be good at talking right?? ^^
HAHAHA.
okay..so..yeah.
actually today was quite pissed at my friend. (alleyne knows who--voldemort? lol)
(for you to find out and for me to know)
sigh....
so what? you're gonna take me for granted.
you see that things are going...a little better,
you start returning back to your old ways??
damnit.
why don't you ever change?
i had enough you know.
and please... work is work.
forget it.
insensitive, and flirtatous.
$#@#gnbjbgb9783j$
i shouldn't even care right?
yeah. damnit.
so i'm just gonna pretend nobody's hurting me right?
yep.
nobody understands.
not nobody, but most don't.
alleyne's flying on this sunday.
aww... =((((((
I"LL MISS HER LOADS.
nobody to tell when i'm angry or sad.
but i think still can bahx.
i hope.
yawn...quite tired.
i have to work on public holidays and weekends too.
but i think no double pay and additional $$.
sad sia.
because we're temp and young.
so...yeah.
disadvantage luh..but....no choice.
so never mind.
work hard work hard.
shall not think of unhappy stuffs like....never mind.
sucks.
then my mum keep telling me not to sigh.
reminds me of alleyne who always say that the sky will fall if i sigh AGAIN
LOLS
HAIZ
i miss the times when i'm happy and free.
not broken-hearted and falling into a bottomless pit.
can anyone save me?
i'm scared of the dark.. if i'm alone luh.
haha.
okay..gotta go. shall update next time.
if i still have any energy left..
lols.
kay...bye.
first day of work today.
it was....ohhkay?
its actually quite manageable.
but...its damn busy one lor.
so...when i was on the bus home.
felt so damn tired.
somemore..i didn't really slept yesterday night.
but...whatever..
and i think i'm truly a workaholic sia.
after work already i still keep thinking about work.
lols.
so basically is to answer calls to answer their qns
and to reconfirm then type out the invoice.
we're still learning.
argh..so tomorrow the boss asked me to answer the calls
while my friend will type the invoice.
actually tying the thing is way way easier.
answering the calls are not THAT easy
but he said i answered better.
well...like alleyne said: i'm gonna be a mass comm person.
so...obviously i'll be good at talking right?? ^^
HAHAHA.
okay..so..yeah.
actually today was quite pissed at my friend. (alleyne knows who--voldemort? lol)
(for you to find out and for me to know)
sigh....
so what? you're gonna take me for granted.
you see that things are going...a little better,
you start returning back to your old ways??
damnit.
why don't you ever change?
i had enough you know.
and please... work is work.
forget it.
insensitive, and flirtatous.
$#@#gnbjbgb9783j$
i shouldn't even care right?
yeah. damnit.
so i'm just gonna pretend nobody's hurting me right?
yep.
nobody understands.
not nobody, but most don't.
alleyne's flying on this sunday.
aww... =((((((
I"LL MISS HER LOADS.
nobody to tell when i'm angry or sad.
but i think still can bahx.
i hope.
yawn...quite tired.
i have to work on public holidays and weekends too.
but i think no double pay and additional $$.
sad sia.
because we're temp and young.
so...yeah.
disadvantage luh..but....no choice.
so never mind.
work hard work hard.
shall not think of unhappy stuffs like....never mind.
sucks.
then my mum keep telling me not to sigh.
reminds me of alleyne who always say that the sky will fall if i sigh AGAIN
LOLS
HAIZ
i miss the times when i'm happy and free.
not broken-hearted and falling into a bottomless pit.
can anyone save me?
i'm scared of the dark.. if i'm alone luh.
haha.
okay..gotta go. shall update next time.
if i still have any energy left..
lols.
kay...bye.
what we could have been...23:30.
